Parental problems......?

It's good to vent in this way because it helps put your situation in perspective in a non-violent way. Our son is gay, and I grieved for a long time. This is normal. So did his dad. It took time for us to accept this "new" son, but not at any time did we ever stop loving him. Everyone handles the issue in a different way, and sometimes pretending it hasn't happened is how some people deal with it. It sounds like it would be a really good idea for you to get some counselling to help you deal with all the issues - those with your parents and those with your self-esteem and confidence. If your parents would also consider this it would be even better, as THEY obviously have problems which they seriously need to work out: you are not going to change your uality and they will eventually need to address that. I am guessing you are still fairly young? Which means it's even harder if you are also in the throes of adolescence with all its hles and challenges. No offence if I have misjudged your age... I can tell you that I make sure I introduce my son's partner as "this is our son's partner..." and I mention his gayness at every appropriate opportunity so that people feel more comfortable around the issue - it helps him, it helps us, it helps you indirectly and it is amazing how many people suddenly burst into tears and "confess" that they have a gay child. Love yourself. Good luck :)